ongoing depression…

There have been those times in my life my depression comes back with vengeance it seems. This is one of those times. I was doing pretty good but not so much now for 3 weeks.

It’s effecting my work, my social life, my life, my health, everything. That what depression does.

BUT… in spite of it I vow to stick with my healthy self care practices. I vow to keep up the good fight and I know it will get better from here. I vow to get the help I need from professionals too. I can’t do this alone.

It’s why I have been mia on the blog lately. But I wanted to check in with you all here and offer you hope too. Hope for the future. We are all in this together and mental illness is real. Remember that, your not alone. Reach out for the help you need. Take one small step in the right direction.


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a word about shame…

We all carry shame with us wherever we go. I have so much shame, it really keeps me small in life. I hate to be seen. It adds to my daily depression. Learning to live free is my goal for 2017.

I want to post a wonderful video here about shame, enjoy…thank you Whitney Thore…

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when depression takes hold of me…

What do you do when sadness seeps into your heart? When the depression gets the best of you each day. Each moment. Let’s have a chat about depression. I want to express to you what it feels like. Read below.

When nothing you do seems to make it better? You get professional help. Adjust your meds and get some good solid therapy. Know in your heart things will improve little by little.

That’s what I am doing but most of all I have a problem with losing interest in everything in my life. Struggling to find motivation to do my work and live my life better.

I continue to do my morning routine so I am starting my day off right no matter how I really feel inside. Keep moving forward is my motto for the year. And I truly believe that will keep me going. It’s hard when you are feeling great and things are going wonderful but then sadness returns and fills you mind and heart. Not a good sign.

Overwhelming sadness in everything in my life. In all I do. Just sadness. Just a lost feeling. I get easily confused. I have a hard time concentrating. No motivation for anything. One foot in front of the other, keep moving forward. Knowing it will get better one day. I know for fact it will, I have been there done that.

When depression takes hold of you, what’s it feel like? Comment below if you wish. It’s ok to stand up and speak. Telling your story lessens the stigma attached to mental illness. Know your not alone, I am right there beside you.

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winter blues…

I love winter but man those days on end that we never see the sunshine just get to me. It’s hard enough when your a depressive person and no sunshine really is a sad thing. But trust me overall I enjoy the winter months. I just don’t like driving in snow and ice.

Please winter bring back my sunshine.

In the past I have used a sunshine light to help me but I currently don’t have one. I need to get one again they are very helpful to sit in front of for a hour or so each day of the winter months.

How do you handle the long dark winter days? Comment please let me know.


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mental health and moving forward…

Take a left turn for the better. Focus on what is really bothering you/me right now. What’s absolutely on my mind? My mental health. And ways I can improve it. Step one, get more help. Seek professional help with medication and therapy. Find out what is really going on. Why am I having so many breakthrough symptoms lately. Why 80% of the time do I feel bad? There are only a few days a month that feel good/great. The rest, not so much. But I am committed to moving forward, not backwards, so it’s time for some additional help.

I am committed to my mental health. I am committed to doing all I can to improve it. I want to work with my doctor(s) to do all I can. Make a plan and work that plan. Ideas below…

  • Medication
  • Therapy
  • Sleep
  • Food
  • Exercise
  • Stress relief
  • Self-care
  • Meditation
  • Prayer
  • Journaling
  • Reading
  • Creativity
  • Create something

What are some things your doing now to improve your mental health today? Join me here on my journey to mental health wellness. 

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